I decided something specific about my character awhile ago. I said to myself “as long as I am warm, fed and entertained” I will be the most patient, comfortable and agreeable person you’ve ever met. I was tested a year ago when I was in a commercial and had to arrive on set at 7:20AM and didn’t shoot my part until 7:20PM. I was sitting by myself for nearly 12 hours. however, I had a book I enjoyed, there was free food and later I took a nap on a chair. I also conversed with some interesting people as well. best 12 hours wasted of my life.
so, these first 2 weeks in Seoul were grumpy and sad because I was A) freezing 2) starving and d) couldn’t get organized to accomplish anything. now it all makes sense why I was being a baby. since the last post I have moved into a very warm room, recieved a package of things I can eat and my attitude has flipped for the best. I AM EFFING PUMPED! I AM IN EFFIN SEOUL, YA’LL!! I wish it didn’t take me so long to soak it in, but at least I’ve crawled out of the swamp of my own mind and shook it off.
it feels as if the switch happened over night. I had a skype meeting with my nutritionist and we talked about what I needed for this diet I am on and my struggles with finding what I need here in Seoul while doing it, as well as some interesting points involving our general physche as human beings on this planet. after our chat, I had an i heart huckabees-type epiphany where I could relax because everything I ever wanted to have or be I already had and was. it felt great.
it feels great. continuously! although, the only thing that has changed is my mind. it’s a powerful thing, these brains and bodies of ours. pretty amazing when you use them at their potential. happy and healthy (famous and wealthy) is the way to be.
also, I have been looking at way too many photos of pancakes on pinterest. it’s DEVASTATING. but even the healthy flaxseed pancakes are drool worthy! who wouldn’t have their spirits lifted after looking at food blogs with ridiculously perfect martha stewart level imagery!? I can’t wait to be able to eat all these delicious foods I’ve taken for granted again. second time around, I’m going to do it right.
and in the meantime, TAKE ON SEOUL! (take on my soul? within seoul?)
(still not tired of the limitless puns on Seoul. I’ll keep you updated if that ever changes).